Sunday, June 19, 2011

My Love Story

I have great news to share: I have been accepted to the Discalced Carmelite Nuns in St. Louis, MO. This is the desire that the Lord has put on my heart; the invitation that He's extended to me, and given me the grace to respond with my "fiat."

As corny as it seems, I've often found myself relating to this song in a profound way. My journey and my vocation are ultimately a love story-- this is all about one Person, Jesus Christ. It's not merely that I love Him, but that He first loved me. And that Love has so overwhlemed me, that I can do nothing less than consecrate myself to Him entirely; to give my whole life to Him, as little of a gift as it may be. And therein lies my happiness, to be with my Savior not just in this world, but for all eternity.

"Sing, O barren one, who did not bear; break forth into singing and cry aloud, you who have not been in travail! For the children of the desolate one will be more than the children of her that is married, says the LORD. Enlarge the place of your tent, and let the curtains of your habitations be stretched out; hold not back, lengthen your cords and strengthen your stakes. For you will spread abroad to the right and to the left, and your descendants will possess the nations and will people the desolate cities. "Fear not, for you will not be ashamed; be not confounded, for you will not be put to shame; for you will forget the shame of your youth, and the reproach of your widowhood you will remember no more. For your Maker is your husband, the LORD of hosts is his name; and the Holy One of Israel is your Redeemer, the God of the whole earth he is called. For the LORD has called you like a wife forsaken and grieved in spirit, like a wife of youth when she is cast off, says your God. For a brief moment I forsook you, but with great compassion I will gather you. In overflowing wrath for a moment I hid my face from you, but with everlasting love I will have compassion on you, says the LORD, your Redeemer." --Isaiah 54:1-8

1 comment:

Elena Cambio said...

I have no idea if you are still looking at this blog, but I just found it, and by God's grace. I am discerning contemplative life with the Carmel of the Trinity in San Diego, CA. I am very grateful for your writings here on my journey to discern God's will for me. What you have described is precisely how I feel about responding to His Love, and to read another modern woman express this does my heart more good than you can imagine. God bless you!